I recently reached out to fellow mothers, as I had been thinking quite a lot about the controversial act of breastfeeding in public and mothers with tattoos. I asked if anyone had faced adversity and discrimination as a mother who breastfed publicly or had tattoos. I was fortunate enough to receive a generous response by one who happily shared their story with me. Now I am sharing it with you.
"When I think about Breastfeeding and
Tattoos several things come to mind and they both have positives and negatives, today I will share both with you."
My life experience some would say has been
troubled and when you look at me you wouldn’t be able to see my daily struggles and how
they have affected me over time. Some would say "how did you deal with all that?" Well in response to this, to start off I have 3
children ages between 19 and 8 and in my first pregnancy I wasn’t able to breastfeed
due to mental and physical health issues. With my first child I couldn't breastfeed as I hoped and I suffered from depression, panic attacks and had complications with my c-section, which took quite a toll on my body.
Baby number two came along and during my pregnancy she kicked me and found out I had a broken tail bone from this, which as you can imagine caused a lot of pain during pregnancy, birth and postpartum, resulting in an excruciating pain still till this day. I tried very hard to breastfeed and care for my child but I just couldn’t as I was in so much pain from the broken tailbone which resulted in my milk eventually dried up. I was
devastated and this really knocked my mental health for a six.
Many years passed and we finally added to our family and our lives were complete. I had a new found determination
that I was certainly going to breastfed my last child with all my motherly might. At first all went smoothly and according to plan, until she was 18
months old. I was only night time feeding then and wasn’t quite ready to give
up, however I started getting pressure from family to give up. My husband during this time was
completely supportive and so were some closer friends and honestly, I was surprised that my
siblings and parents were not. Snide remarks about my daughters age, phone
calls to my friends asking them to tell me to give it up, that me that my child was too
old to breastfeed any longer. Of course the usual stares and comments were to follow in my home when I'd leave a gathering to feed my
daughter and put her to bed.
In the end the stress from it all made my milk dry
up once again and I still feel to this day I was pressured into not giving my
last child what she needed. Despite the fact I was already talking to my husband about our
daughter and when we would start the transition, but there is nothing worse than having a
decision forced upon you causing you to feel extra stress and pressure as a parent to do essentially "the right thing". I can honestly say that I can, sometimes, have the most amazing supportive family and friends around me and at other times, not so much. This is
where having my tattoos has also been tied into certain unwelcome and unsupportive responses from others. I do have two tattoos, one on my back with my
children’s names which was done several years ago, which received some
comments which wasn't too bad at the time, more so as it was obviously why I had done it and people questioning it.
My second tattoo was last year on my left wrist and for me it is a daily reminder of HOPE, HOPE for
the future, HOPE for a cure to cancer, HOPE for understanding, HOPE for
Support and HOPE for Community awareness, I'm sure you get the picture. In response to this tattoo that signified something so important for me, I received the usual comments such as, "why would I want a reminder that I had Cancer, why do I want prospective
employers to see that I have a medical history that could impact my work, why
mark myself with something I would want to forget, why have a constant reminder
of that trauma?"
All those types of questions and statements fuelled my response and I would answer any of these questions quite simply, as for me, I believe the answer is the same when anyone would also ask about my scars. My response to these questions are that they are a reminder and a powerful one at that, that no matter what happens in life, I can move forward,
I can hope for a better future for my husband, my children and most important, myself. It is a
reminder that I am stronger that all the things that have tried to beat me
down. For me and many out there, even mums, tattoos are living art, something
that each person has made a definitive decision to have a moment in time
imprinted to last a life time. A constant reminder of things that may have been and are to come, the we are now stronger because of it.
At the
end of the day, all you need to know is that it is my body my decision and my beliefs and values that guide
me. These are my decisions, from breastfeeding my child to having tattoos. These things have no impact what so ever on the wellbeing of an onlooking stranger,
friend or even family, who may or may not know the struggles I face as a mother. Nor does my image as a mother become defined by societies negative view on mothers whether it is them breastfeeding, formula feeding, wearing certain clothing or having tattoos.
These things are a reminder of something important, something that helps them remain powerful and that is they are mothers and what they do in public does give society an invitation to define them.
"People need to accept that they have no influence over another person’s decisions."
Thank you Anonymous.